I took swimming lessons all through my childhood, and by the time I was 12 I realized I was on my way to becoming a lifeguard. I spent endless hours in lifesaving classes, swimming lap after lap with dozens of other students. The choppy water made it harder to breathe, because when you turned your [...]
Tag Archives: personal growth
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soul whispering
Still from the 2011 documentary Buck, about the life and work of horse trainer Buck Brannaman. I ended up taking all of last week off blogging. It was restful and necessary and a smart thing to do, but it was also one of the hardest things I’ve done lately, because it triggered a lot of [...]
recalculating
I remember when my dad first got a GPS for his car. I would laugh whenever he took a wrong turn, and the machine would intone: “Recalculating. Recalculating…” Now I’m the one who’s recalculating. As I mentioned in my last blog post, I keep getting hunches that I should cut back on the time that [...]
learning to trust the inner voice
I have a horrific headache as I’m writing this, so it may be very short. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about trust – and about trusting my inner voice most of all. It’s part of why I’m writing my book about ritual – I believe so strongly that it’s our connection to our inner [...]
scar tissue
As I’m writing this on Thursday night, it’s much cooler than it has been lately, and a soft rain is falling. I love how much it reminds me of fall. (And these introductory sentences don’t have much to do with the rest of the post, but I just felt like sharing.) I’ve been thinking a [...]
temporary home
On the weekend, when I was struggling with panic over my broken-down car, one of the greatest fears that kept rising up was losing my home. I rent a lovely apartment in a quiet, century neighbourhood. I love living alone. I love this place where I find myself. I love the beautiful and useful objects [...]
nine lives
I am blessed by the companionship of two cats – three-year-old brothers from the same litter. They are beautiful and cuddly and annoying in equal measure, and last Friday I was afraid I might be losing one of them. The diagnosis? Urinary tract disease. Thankfully I was responsive to his signs of distress, and caught [...]
glimpses of heaven
This past week has included one of the hottest days on record – ever – for my city. I’ve been sweaty and uncomfortable and crampy and cranky and headachey and many nights I haven’t felt like writing, but I’ve done it anyway. Strangely enough, this week has also been full of moments of pure bliss, [...]
the ugly duckling
What’s your worst fear? For many, it’s being ridiculed or rejected – by their community, their family, or their loved ones. Do you remember the fairy tale The Ugly Duckling? A little creature emerges from an egg and finds himself in a nest of ducklings, but he looks… different. And the others pick on him. [...]
pain, and the stories we tell about it
A couple of nights ago I was visiting a friend, and she brought up the work of Byron Katie. I’d never read any of Katie’s books, although I’ve been wanting to for a long time, so my friend sent me home with Loving What Is. Oh. My. Goodness. I have been needing this book, and [...]